This week has been a week of revelation and great joy for me. A lot of things have been learned these past few days. First thing I would like to say is as I am writing this I am on my way home from a 3 night visit to my favorite place in the world, Jamaica. I am at 38,000 feet in the air on an airplane without my seat belt on and there is a lot of turbulence at the moment. I never go with out the seat belt and especially not on a flight with turbulence. Though I am a travel agent I am extremely afraid to fly. But for the first time in my life I am not afraid and I finally realize that God is in control of this plane and of my life.
This vacation started with me going to bed on Tuesday night to try to get some sleep knowing I had an early flight to catch the next morning. As I was just settling down to sleep I looked up and happened to notice on the wall behind my bed my number one biggest fear in the world, a spider. Gosh I do not like spiders. I think they are absolutely the most creepiest creatures I have ever seen. Those long creepy legs send goose bumps up and down my spine. I can not hardly even bare to look at them.
Upon trying to smash the spider he dropped to the floor still very much alive and proceeded to crawl around behind the headboard of my bed. I waited impatiently for him to come out all the while keeping my eye on him watching him crawl up an down the wall never quite coming close enough from behind the safety of the headboard so I could kill him. It was almost as if he knew I was there and was messing with me. He would come out and as I would try to hit him then he would run. Then to my horror on my last attempted to smash him he went behind the wall trim never to be found again, my worst nightmare! What was I going to do? There was no possible way I could sleep with a spider on the loose in my bedroom and so close to my bed! I just knew if I dare close my eyes for one second he would come creeping out and climb into bed with me. I decided that was the end of my sleeping for the night and in frustration I laid down at the bottom of the bed so I could keep a close eye on the wall trim where he had magically disappeared to.
As I was laying there watching the trim, I thought of something my friend Judy had said to me one day about praying for spider grace. I was planning to go on a mission trip with her next Winter and was told a story of spiders that they had encountered on a previous mission trip. I had told her how I was worried about spiders being there for this one and said I did not think I would be able to take lots of spiders very well. She had then said to me we will pray for you to have spider grace. I never really had thought about her saying that again since. I am not going on that trip now and by the way not because of spiders. That is another long story I may put here one day but not today. This story is plenty long enough
Anyway… as I was laying there watching for Mr. Spider to come back out I thought about spider grace… I wondered what that could be…but thought maybe now would be a good time to find out so I began to pray. I know that may sound weird to you but I prayed to God to please give me spider grace. I do not sleep well and on a normal night without any spiders I would have had a hard time sleeping anyway but about 2 minutes into my prayer the next thing I knew I was waking up and it was morning! Spider grace…wow God had given me spider grace! I had just managed to sleep through my worst fear and was getting ready to face my next biggest fear…flying. If God could get me through spiders I knew flying would be a breeze.
We arrived at the airport and found that the plane was full. We were flying charter so you get your seats when you arrive at the ticket counter. We were given 2 seats across the isle from each other. I ended up with sitting with a couple of which the man was afraid to fly. So at least I had company. We talked about our fear of flying and it actually seemed quite odd hearing another persons reasoning as to why they are afraid to fly. That conversation seemed to take my mind off of my own fear a bit. I do not like take off at all and do not like landing to much more other than it means I am going to be safely back on the ground soon.
I will have to admit at take off I was afraid but I did know that Jesus was with me holding my hand. I am not afraid of dying but I do have to admit I do not want to fall out of the sky and think about hitting the ground on my way to Heaven. As we were shooting up into the sky and the fear was building all the sudden I found myself feeling peaceful as if He were whispering to me “its ok I got this” and he did have it. The rest of the flight I was great. We even ended up in the sky about an hour longer than expected because we had to go around a storm in the gulf. We landed in Jamaica safe and sound.
The first thing I saw when we left the airport was the slum area. As always it tugged at my heart making me wonder how it is possible that such poverty can sit on one right there in the middle of a tropical paradise overlooking the dark blue waters of the Caribbean Sea. Shortly after passing that we arrived at our luxurious resort. I thought to myself, why has God chosen for me to be on vacation here and those who live here are in such need? While I was there in Jamaica I found my self finding hidden treasure everywhere the whole time I was there. I found treasure in small animals such as birds and crabs, flowers and of course the ocean. I always feel closest to God when I am by the ocean. I think it’s because when I see it I realize his awesome power. Did you ever think about how we are floating on a ball through space and we don’t fall off and the water does not pour off? How could there not be God?
The next morning my husband and I noticed a couple who had been on the plane with us coming in with their suitcases leaving the resort. We talked to each other about them wondering what had happened and why they had cut their vacation short. Did they not like the resort? Did something happen at home? We later forgot all about them but then the next afternoon we saw them at the resort again. Again we talked about them. We wondered why they left with suitcases and then came back? They were like a mystery couple. Again we forgot all about them and continued with our vacation.
Now to today, we missed our shuttle ride to the airport because they had changed the pick up time and we did not know it. We had to get a taxi to the airport. Because we were flying charter we did not have assigned seats on the plane and we were last in line. When we got up to the counter we found out that there were only 2 seats left on the plane that we could have and they were not together. I did not want to ride away from my husband so asked about the preferred seating. I was told they had 2 seats not together but across the isle from each other and they were only $20 a piece so we decided to buy them. With those seats you also get special perks. One of them being, you get to board the plane before everyone else.
When we began to board I was close to the front of the line to being first on the plane and guess who got pulled for a full search? Ya, you guessed it, ME! They went through my suitcase, my purse and checked my pockets. They also gave me a full body pat down while everyone else in line got to go right by me and get on the plane, so much for my getting on the plane first perk. It was not really my best day so far as you can tell but I do get to sit in the front of the plane and across the isle from my husband so that is a blessing. As I got on the plane I silently prayed to God?” Could you please let me sit by someone nice on the plane?”
I entered the plane, had a hard time finding a place to put my carry on because by now the bins were full, but finally I arrived at my seat. Imagine my shock when I realized of all the people on that plane my seat mates are the mystery couple we had noticed at the resort 🙂 Nobody can tell me that God did not fully orchestrate this whole seating arrangement.
We began to chat and immediately I discovered that I really like these people. They are so full of Jesus and joy its spilling over into my seat. They won their vacation from a local radio station but of the 2 full days they had for vacation they chose to bring in supplies for the needy and they spent one whole day going around giving them out. They visited schools, clinics and homes giving out clothing, school supplies and toiletries. They are full of stories and just bubbling with joy left over from their visits.
**The captain just illuminated the seat belt sign so much for writing this seat beltless and the turbulence is really rough now. Have to put away my kindle, we will be landing in about a half and hour so will finish this at home on the ground.
Safely on the ground now and its Sunday… hopefully I can remember where I was going with this and finish it up, its no longer a blog its a book lol
During the plane ride home, after talking to my seat mates for a while I listened to music while I read. even slept and of course wrote half this blog. The plane ride had a lot of rough turbulence that day. I don’t remember being upset at all even found it kind of fun. I found out after we got home there was a tropical storm in the gulf that we were going around. We landed about an hour late again. I was talking to my Dawn my neighbor again after I had to put away the kindle and quit writing. A funny thing happened that day. I was so busy talking to her we landed and I realized I did not pay to much attention that we were landing. I looked around when we were on the ground and said “oh my gosh! we landed?” to my husband. If you have ever flown with me you know I do not miss landings because I am usually digging my nails into my palms of my hands as I close my eyes.
This next thing I am going to tell you is a secret I have been keeping for a while. Most people do not know this about me. In the past I had used alcohol as a way to escape my problems or to numb pain or fear. I have never been one to drink on the job or drink and drive or do anything to get myself in to trouble, but alcohol was my drug of choice when needing something to turn to for comfort. Flying is one of those occasions where I would drink so as not to be afraid. Every bit of turbulence I would have pushed the call button and asked for more wine.
Before this trip I prayed to God to please lead me and show me what his plan is for me. I know it was not an accident I ended up sitting next to those people on the plane. I also know for a fact his plan for me is mission work and I know I am already involved in it a tiny bit and who knows where its going to end up going. I can not wait to find out! I’m sure there will be lots more turbulence and maybe spiders (lol this is so long I forgot I started with spiders) but I am not scared I am excited. I also know that his plan does not include alcohol to distort my view along the way because it does not give me peace and makes me not be the person I am supposed to be. Something else I discovered these past few days is that on a plane is not the only place I have found turbulence. My life has been kind of like a plane ride. Most days I am flying along smoothly and happy. But then there are those days I hit a few small bumps but then I recover pretty fast and do not even notice. Then there are other days that I hit a really rough patch and bounce all over the place trying to get my self back on a smooth path and find I need a call button. Do I push the call button and ask for wine? No way! I have the ultimate call button now. I have a direct call button to God. I do not need wine because I have Jesus he comes and takes my order, takes my hand, calming me. Just like on a plane turbulence is always expected. It won’t ever fully go away and the same is true with my life. I can chose to be afraid and numb it up with some alcohol or I can truly find real peace knowing He is there helping me to me relax and enjoy the ride.
I have one more thing to add to this, along with the preferred seating I mentioned it came with perks. One of those perks was I was given ticket vouchers for 2 free alcoholic beverages of my choice I chose a cranberry apple drink and did NOT put the vodka in it. It was not needed God is all I need 🙂
2 Timothy 1:7 For the spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
Thanks for reading and God Bless you 🙂
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