Most of my life I have had panic attacks. When I have a panic attack most of the time they come out of nowhere and most of the time they seem to be about nothing. At times they can be so strong they cause me to lose a grip on the reality that I am having a fear about nothing. When a panic attack starts usually at first I will feel an overwhelming sense of doom, and then the fear will start to come in really fast eventually overwhelming me. Over the years I have learned how talk myself out of having a full blown panic attack. After Jesus came into my life they seemed to not be as severe anymore though I did still have them from time to time.
They came back pretty strong again when I woke up one morning almost 4 years ago with a bright glow in my eye due to a blood clot in my eye (story here). As I went through my eye issues over the next few years at first I spent a lot of the time in panic. Gradually over time God started really showing me how he was there with me during those times and eventually I noticed I did not have many panic attacks anymore and if I did they were very short lived.
Today I was driving my car and suddenly I noticed bright glow in my left eye…you know how when you look at the sun and then look away, how for several minutes you will see a glowing spot in your eyes?? What I saw looked like that. Because that glow is what I saw the morning I woke up with the blood clot in my eye now sometimes a glare off the sun or a light bulb will send me into panic. I know that sounds silly but that is how my mind works. So as I was driving down the road today I must have been looking at something that caused the glow to happen. The minute I noticed it panic started to grip hold of me. But suddenly the words “Jesus please take this” came out of my mouth and then I began to thank him for all he has done for me. Within a matter of second’s peace replaced the fear.
It took me a few minutes before I realized what had just happened. I remember a time I would go and cower in fear at the first inkling of panic with it eventually turning into a full blown panic attack. I realized today that I didn’t do that, I realized that somewhere along the line I have learned how to face my fear with strength in knowing God has it under control. Wow it was so cool to realize that I now take security in the fact that panic does not own me because I chose to let go of it.
Over the years I have found out that a lot of people don’t understand my panic attacks and to some people a fear of nothing seems silly. But to me the fear I feel in a panic attack is very real and is something way bigger than I can deal with. I now know that the fear was never mine to deal with in the first place.
When God created us he did not give us fear instead he gave us strength. He gave us the strength that can only come from him. All we have to do is call on him, trust in the fact that he is bigger than our fear. Once we believe and trust him we can relax and live in his peace.
Thank you for the peace that you just gave me. I know that if not for you sometimes panic would overtake me. Thank you for giving me security in knowing that when I call out your name you will grab onto my hand and lead me back to peace. I trust you and I know you are faithful. I know that nothing here on this earth can separate me from the peace that I have in you. When anxiety and panic sneak in and try to grip me I know where to turn to find peace. When I turn to you, your peace wafts over me, and takes away my fear. Thank you for loving me and surrounding me with you power.
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Thank you for sharing this. I so needed to read it! 🙂
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Then I am glad I posted. Grab on to Jesus’s hand his strength and peace is yours to have. Thanks for reading.
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I thought I was reading my story again, so many panic attacks over the years. I give thanks to God for helping me with my writing, enabling me to put my story out there and maybe helping someone as in your blog. I panicked when I was moving to my unit and put a dent in my car. I just could not think. Anxiety!
I truly do understand how you feel. God is so good and thankfully his peace is here, I am so glad you know that too. Thank you for reading and sharing I used to feel alone in this now not only do I have Jesus but I am finding many people have this that I never knew had it I hope that everyone can find his peace too. It’s good to find others who speak up like you have it really helps.
I remember when I had Panic attacks T before they found out they had wrongly diagnosed me and so I was not on the right medication, my attacks were similar to yours and yes I felt fear too but like you I prayed and they disappeared. Come close to God and Satan flees and so does fear and worry.
Christian Love – Anne.
I am so glad they figured out that you were on the wrong medicine, I hope they were able to change that for you. So glad God takes care of us.