You all know I have this eye issue going on, well today I found out that my insurance company denied the treatment that would have hopefully kept me from having 2 eye surgeries. The treatment only has a 50 percent chance of working but it will keep me from having to go through a surgery that could possibly cause me to be blind in my eye for 3 weeks to 4 months until some sort of gas bubble they will be putting in my eye dissolves and my eye fills back up with its own fluid (they will take out my own fluid).
As you saw in my last post I thought that the Vitreous gel had released off of my retina because the flashing had suddenly went away and also I could see better than I could in over a year and a half. On Wednesday of last week a new flash started but I still can see really good, though I can see really good the flashing means the gel is still attached but some of it has released. If not for the insurance companies denial I would have had that injection this coming Wednesday. As it stands now I have to make the decision to have the surgery or take a chance on my retina possibly detaching.
When I first found out this morning about all this I was furious, and still may be…How can the insurance company be allowed to play doctor when its MY eyesight at stake? After I found out this news the first thing I did was call my insurance company and argue with them, then cry and even yell at them. I will admit I let them see the side of me I usually only reserve for my poor husband. After that didn’t work I hurried up and sent my daughter a text telling her all about it. She sympathized with me but seriously what did I think she could do to help the situation so of course my next course of action was to go to my phone and post this angry Facebook status…
Of course you all know that was a great solution… Let me tell you I had a very large pity party this morning and I was inviting anyone and everyone who would want to join me. That would show those insurance company executives right?? After all I am sure they read my Facebook status every day and this mean comment with a lot of likes and comments that agreed would for sure make them rethink their decision~
I am sure you know by now I am just being sarcastic I know my insurance company does not see my Facebook statuses or my mean text about them to my daughter. I did discover though that there is one person who did see my anger and frustration and also he saw my facebook post and that would be God…yep he saw it… You know one time someone told me that in my Christian walk that before I did something I should think would I do this if God were sitting beside me? Well guess what??… HE IS! And sometimes he has this way of using other people to reel me in. As soon as I posted right away I got a few likes… oh that made me feel good because people were agreeing and I even got an agreeable comment….But then the next comment shook me up.. “Don’t give up. Remember you have the Great Advocate working behind the scenes.” I saw that comment on my phone just as I opened my curtains to a window that looks out over my back yard, my beautiful lovely green treed back yard with flowers blooming and sun shine streaming through it. Right there in the middle of my anger I saw God is still working and I can see just fine still! It made me feel ashamed because how did I manage to forget? … sheesh just last week I wrote a blog post about how I thought God had healed my eye. Yes I have had new flashing since that post but I can still see great! Better than in over a year! Just the other day I told someone that I had claimed my miracle and I wasn’t going to give it back and now just because my insurance company denied a claim for a treatment I am acting like it’s the end of it all.
After I saw the beauty in my back yard, and comment on my Facebook status, I decided it was time to visit with God so I grabbed my Bible and went off for some quiet time with him. As I was praying I felt led to open my Bible and when I did it opened to this page where for some reason a few things were underlined. I am not sure why or when I underlined them but today what I realized is those words were the voice of God and I realized I could see it so clearly WITHOUT my glasses on in a Bible with writing so small I could not see it just a few short weeks ago.
“I will be with you”
I went on to read the rest of the passage … Isaiah 43:2-3 When you pass through the waters I will be with you and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned the flames will not set you ablaze, For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel your Savior.”
Wow after words like that I have nothing else to say other than, “I know God’s got this and thank you!”
Have a blessed day,
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It’s hard to accept when insurance companies act like this, to be sure, but I like to look at it this way: there was only a 50% chance of it working, and perhaps it wasn’t going to work in your case. I see it as a moment when God spoke, y’know? But don’t lose heart. That means the surgery will be your best option. Your blessed option, one might say. These experiences are going to lead you into a new kind of ministry, dear heart! You’ll be sharing with the visually-impaired community, and we could use such an eloquent and uplifting writer speaking on our behalf! Peace & Blessings, Ruth
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What you say makes a lot of sense, I didn’t think of it like that but now that you brought that to my attention I think you could be right, My ‘blessed’ option, I like that. Thank you so much for your input and for your kindness I really appreciate it!
This is such a great post Terri, they always are. I don’t know if great is the right word because your story worries me, I do have faith that things will work out fine, but as humans we still worry. I was pleased that by the time I reached the end if the post I could relax a bit. Jeremiah 29:11 for I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Xx
Thank you Beverley, but no worries, God has this for sure. Thank you for caring and for the Jeremiah 29:11 reminder that is so true for sure!
Hi T, we all respond to what is not fair or right, Jesus and Paul etc did too but as you shared we can’t hold onto our hurt or it will harm us not those who have done the wrong.
Yes God has indeed heard you T.
You may not remember that I shared Isaiah 43 with you and some other Scriptures on one of your Posts last year, I will leave your link below, God gave them to me as I was going through a very bad Storm in my own life, I still hold onto them and I’m always reassured during the hard times I face, just as you are being now.
The Power point I gave you on your Post was the one God used to reassure me when Mum was dying, He spoke to my heart as I created the Aussie version for another Blogging friend but to share all about it with you now would be too much detail but I have done so on my Blog.
You are in my Prayers dear friend – Christian Love Always – Anne.
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Thank you Anne, I did not remember that but when I click the link I see it, I also see the one Beverly posted in her comment today is there in your comment too. those scripture keep coming up for me a lot lately. Thank you for your prayers too!
You are allowed to rant when life is unfair but in the end you turned it all over to God. He knows what is best for you. You are being prayed for daily. God bless.
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Thank you Juanita, your kindness and support are so much appreciated. I am so blessed and thankful for you and the rest of my church family.
Beautiful post T. God truly is always hard at work, even when we don’t recognize his presence – talking from experience here! 🙂 He will indeed take care of this whole situation. Please let me know if you’re interest in some things that worked for me, holding insurance carriers responsible for their decisions. Maybe that’s part of God’s plan with our paths crossing. Fear not T, He’s with you always! Refreshing! Sleep tight!