The Time is Now

I woke up in unable to breathe today…

Just breathing can sometimes be hard to do especially when there is a storm raging around me. Each day I have asked God to make it stop but lately the troubles are piling in, swirling and raging around me like a hurricane.

I have heard that in the eye of a hurricane there is a calm and peaceful place.  God has carried me through so much in the past 3 years and thankfully even though the storms kept coming God always seems to keep me centered and safe in the peace of His watchful eye.

Though sometimes hard, the past 3 years have been a huge miracle to me.  God has carried me through a vision problem that almost caused me to lose my eyesight in my right eye.  While He was healing my eyesight He also healed me from the blindness I had to the world around me by showing me things I had never cared about or noticed before.

God has helped me give up alcohol and shown me I do not need it in my life to live.  God has also helped me get over social anxiety.  I can remember a time that I could not sit in a room full of people unless I was drinking wine to take the edge off.

God has used me to lead Bible studies when I know nothing about the Bible and He helped me speak in front of my church 2 times about the kids of Compassion and THAT is amazing when I think about the fact that I used to not even be able to get in the door because of the fear of all those people!

In March God took me to Haiti to meet my Compassion sponsor child.  On that trip I rode on a bus packed in like a sardine with people I didn’t know for many hours and I loved it!  I still am amazed by that… Haiti?? Me?? No way? Yes way! With God all things are possible!

If you would have told me 4 years ago that one day I would be a Christian and attending church let alone all that other stuff I would have told you that you were nuts!  Oh by the way I forgot mention I now work at my church!? That one still makes me want to pinch myself from time to time to make sure I am awake and not dreaming. Those are just a few highlights, I could go on all day long about all God has done to change my life.

Though God is always good, life still can at times be hard.  About a month ago I started having  vision problems in my other eye. Have visited the Retina specialist again to be told we can not do anything at this time but wait.  Some days I have panic attacks because of the odd things that I see in my vision field.  This Wednesday I am scheduled to have knee surgery and  then in 4 weeks I will be having surgery on the other knee.  There are also a few more things I can not share publicly but involve people that I love.  I have days I almost cave in under the weight of it all but Jesus keeps holding my hand and giving me the peace I need, by showing me all the blessings in my life and reminding me of all the things he has carried me through before.

This morning I found myself venturing out of His peaceful place into the raging wind of the storm.  At beginning of this blog I wrote…”I woke up in unable to breathe today”,  I could have written that yesterday and the day before that.  Each and every day  if I don’t lift it all up to God and let go of it I will begin to feel myself suffocating.

There is a song called ‘Help me Find It’ by Sidewalk Prophets that I love.  Every time I hear it I find myself singing along and also singing it to God. The words to the song say

I don’t know where to go from here, it used to seem so clear, I’m finding I cant do this on my own.

I don’t know where to go from here, as long as I know that you are near,

I’m done fighting I’m finally letting go,

I will trust in you, you’ve never failed before, I will trust in you.  

If there’s a road I should walk help me find it, If I need to be still give me peace for the moment,

Whatever your will, whatever your will, can you help me find it? Can you help me find it?

Today when I woke my vision was cloudy, my knees were weak and my heart felt broken but I continue to I breathe Jesus in because I know without him I could never do this.

With every breathe I take He gives me the peace I need for that moment.

Though I have nothing to give Him He still keeps on giving to me.

I have never had to take one step alone and I never will

Peace for the moment.

The panic has subsided and in my heart I feel peace now.  I asked him to help me find it and he did.

Today is the day He gave me his grace,

Today is the day He will guide me,

Today is the day He comforts me,

Today is the day he gives me hope.

Today is the day he gave me Peace.

For I know the plans I have for you, ”declares the Lord,“ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Jeremiah 29:11

Below is a link to the Youtube video ‘Help Me Find It’  by, Sidewalk Prophets

Thank you for reading and have a blessed day,


#HMFI – @swprophets.

4 thoughts on “The Time is Now

  1. Freedomborn - Set Free Eternally says:

    How wonderful T that you recognise that only Jesus can keep you strong through the Storms of life, Satan wants you to feel defeated and helpless but God tells us what our focus needs to be……..

    Philippians 4:6-8 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

    Thank you for sharing from your heart T , when all looks dark Jesus turns on His Light, I will pray for you sight in the other eye to be clear, please pray for me too. Although God has healed me and I won’t be a Paraplegic now, I find that with being inactive for over 4 years I have to get my mussels working again and with all the walking I did in Sydney they are now aching and it’s hard to walk without pain, my only relief is God’s Healing Balm which I’m very thankful for.

    Christian Love from both of us -Anne


  2. Men of One Accord says:

    My dear Abba, If I had the words to cry out for my sister in You,
    If I had the songs to sing before You for my sister in You,
    If I had great prayers to lavish before You for my sister in You,
    I would
    All I have are these tears to wash Your feet with for my sister in You.


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