I walked to the front of the room my body trembling.  As I turned to face the crowd a bead of sweat trickled down the side of my face.  I felt my feet about to turn and make a run for the door but just as I was about to make my move heard a voice whisper “look into their faces, you have nothing to fear.”

I paused moment to catch my breath and reluctantly looked out into the room.  I looked out into the faces I had been avoiding and that was the minute I saw Him.  At that very moment I saw Jesus, He was right there smiling back at me. He was sitting there in the sea of faces that were lovingly smiling back at me.  I saw His love radiating, shining out in the smiles of my church family.

The pastor introduced us all and then we turned to face the alter for the ceremony.  As I stood at the alter I felt hands begin to lay on my back.  I had no idea whose hands were touching me but then I realized that though the faces were unseen the hands belonged to Jesus.

We all knelt down together and I bowed my head in prayer.  As we prayed somehow the room seemed to disappeared and I began to feel His spirit flowing through me filling me with His love.  As we all prayed together it felt as if we became one.  We were all Him.  We were all His hands, His feet, His body.  We were all His love.

Today in that room full of my church family Jesus surrounded me.  Together our voices sang His praises together.  In that room we all stood as one.  His loving arms wrapped around us, lifting us up, tying us all together.

Today the love of Jesus plunged so deep into my heart it ached, filling me with a love so strong and overwhelming that it poured down my face in a flood of tears.

As I looked around the room today I saw Jesus.

He was in the faces of my church family

He was in the touch of their hands

He was there in their hugs

He was there in the love

He WAS the love

The love of Jesus seems so overwhelming to me at times that I could never begin to explain how it feels.  All I can seem to say  is that it feels so good I never want to go back to the place I used to live.  I want to live right here in this moment I want to only move forward from here on out, going where ever he leads.

Isaiah 6:8  Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?”  And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”