My Broken Hallelujah


The events of this past week are running though my head tonight.  I keep thinking about how this time last week it felt like everything was whirling out of control and my heart was aching in sorrow for someone I love.  I felt so overwhelmed by it all that when I went to church last Sunday morning I just sat in the back row feeling like I was watching the service in slow motion.  Tears kept welling up in my eyes and I tried really hard not to let them escape.  Several times I didn’t succeed at stopping the flow of tears and I had to leave the sanctuary to compose myself.  I remember feeling like there was just no way things could ever be good again.

I spent the next two days trying desperately to make my world stop spinning so fast. I kept giving it all up to God and then a few hours later I would take it back. I have no idea how many times I did that before I finally excepted the fact that things were out of my control, had never been in my control, and were not mine to control.  There was nothing at all I could do to help except pray, give it to God, and then let him keep it!

I have been hearing a song on the radio a lot lately called “Broken Hallelujah” by the Afters.

This past week every time I turned on the radio it seemed like that song would be playing.  Each time I heard it I always found myself singing it to God. It may sound strange but I just felt so overwhelmed with thankfulness for who He is that I would find myself throwing my hands in the air and singing at the top of my lungs.  Each time I sang that song I found peace. God kept meeting me right there in the middle of a song turned into a prayer.

“Broken Hallelujah”

By, The Afters

I can barely stand right now.
Everything is crashing down,
And I wonder where You are.

I try to find the words to pray.
I don’t always know what to say,
But You’re the one that can hear my heart.

Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know You’re making beauty from these ashes.

I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

You know the things that have brought me here.
You know the story of every tear.
‘Cause You’ve been here from the very start.

Even though I don’t know what your plan is,
I know You’re making beauty from these ashes.

I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

When all is taken away, don’t let my heart be changed.
Let me always sing Hallelujah
When I feel afraid, don’t let my hope be erased
Let me always sing Hallelujah.
Let me always sing Hallelujah.

I will always sing
I will always sing
Here’s my broken hallelujah.

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Today it’s been exactly a week since everything seemed to go out of control, but now I can see that everything was always in control and things are also looking up now.  Though they are far from being over things are moving toward a place of healing for all of those involved and I know its all in God’s hands.

So once again I will sing, “Hallelujah!”

How about you?  will you join me as I praise God today?

Are things swirling out of control?


I know it may sound strange but why not praise God right there where you are?


Praise him for who he is.


Praise him just because he is God.


Praise him right there in the middle of the storm.

Praise him even when you feel so broken you think things could never be put together again.

Praise him knowing that your loved ones are safe in his arms.

Praise him and know  that he has everything under control.


No matter what you are feeling right now…you can trust God and believe he is right beside you because he is!


Get on your knees and pray or throw your arms in the air and sing.  However you choose to praise him He will be  there.

Give God your broken Hallelujah today.


Thanks for reading,



Speaking to one another with psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit. Sing and make music from your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. ~ Ephesians 5:19-20


A Brand New Day


Sometimes our lives can become a tangled mess but every day is a new day to start fresh. If you are feeling like you need a do over… today is the day.  Lay your burden at the feet of Jesus and know that no matter where you are in life or what you have done he loves you so much more than you could ever imagine.  He will help you break those chains that bind and help you start over fresh and new.  Thank you Jesus for each new day!

Have a blessed day,



Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our “God is a consuming fire.” Hebrews 12:28-29


Mistake or Plan?

I have been down and defeated, broken and afraid.

Sometimes it feels like life is going to be like this forever, though I know its not.

Every morning I read a devotional by the name of “Jesus Calling” written by Sarah Young. This morning while lying in bed I opened my book and this is what I read…

* Except each day exactly as it comes to you.  By that I mean not only the circumstances of your day but also the condition of your body.  Your assignment is to trust me absolutely, resting in My sovereignty and faithfulness.  On some days, your circumstances and your physical condition feel out of balance.  The demands on you seem far greater than your strength.  Days like the present a choice between two alternatives- giving up or relying on Me.  Even if you wrongly choose the first alternative.  I will not reject you. You can turn to Me at any point and I will help you crawl out of the mire of discouragement.  I will infuse My strength into you moment by moment, giving you all that you need for this day, Trust Me by relying on my empowering presence.

Psalm 42:5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

2 Corinthians 13:4 For to be sure, he was crucified in weakness, yet he lives by God’s power. Likewise, we are weak in him, yet by God’s power we will live with him in our dealing with you.

Jeremiah 31:25 I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint. 

I get the feeling like it or not I was going to have to get my butt out of bed and do my exercises.  They hurt and to be honest I really did not want to do them.  But I could continue to lay there or sit in a chair all day and not feel a bit better or get out of bed, do my exercises and work on healing.

So I did.

I turned on the radio and reluctantly started.  A couple of sets in I realized I was doing much better than yesterday znd oddly the songs that were playing on the radio were perfectly matched to how I was feeling.  The more I moved I felt better and I started singing along with the radio.   I felt empowered and strong and full of thankfulness and I found myself having one of the best God moments I have had in a long time.  A little bit later it dawned on me … I had just attended a worship service.  Who would have thought I would have been sweaty and dirty doing leg lifts and stretches on my living room floor and attending one of the most awesome worship services I have ever attended.   That goes to show we can have worship anywhere anytime.  We don’t need a fancy building or to sit quietly for God to show up.  He is always here and we can worship him anywhere we feel the urge.

I could end this blog here but this was not the end of the story.  What happened next was the coolest thing.

After I was finished exercising I went back to the devotional because I decided I was going to share it on facebook.  But when I opened my book the words were different. What happened??!! Did I dream up this whole thing? Had I lost my mind? Upon further investigation I realized I had read SEPTEMBER 8th instead of October 8th by mistake.

Its times like this that I see God the most.  The times when He swoops in and rescues me. The times he throws Himself right in front of me and shows me that He is the one in charge.  That what I look at as a mistake was really part of His plan.  Mistake I read the wrong devotional?  I think not, God does not make mistakes I truly think He wanted me to read September 8th today.  My mistake, His plan.

This is still not the end of the story today.  Since today really is October 8th I decided to read today’s reading

Here is today’s devotional…

* I LOVE YOU with an everlasting Love.  The human mind cannot comprehend My constancy.  Your emotions flicker and falter in the face of varying circumstances, and you tend to project your fickle feelings onto Me.  Thus, you do not benefit fully from My unfailing Love.  You need to look beyond the flux of circumstance and discover Me gazing lovingly back at you.  This awareness of My presence strengthens you , as you receive and respond to MY Love.  I am the same yesterday, today and forever! Let My Love flow into you continually.  Your need for Me is as constant as the outflow of My Love to you.

Jeremiah 31:3 The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.

Exodus 15:13 In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.

Hebrews 13:8 8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

I had to smile when I read that one 🙂  It’s going to be a great day!


In God We Trust

Let me start by saying I normally keep my political opinions to myself and I will not be voicing my voting preferences in this post.

These past few months I have been watching the political ads on the television.  I have to say most of them show me more about the person running for the job than I think they actually were planning for me to know about them.  Instead of using that time to tell me about themselves and what they want to do during their time in office to help our country, they tell me about what a horrible person their opponent is.  If I were on a job interview and you were the person interviewing me and asked me the question, ‘what do you think you will add to my company? And I answered by saying “Mr. So-and-So out in the waiting room is always late for work, he is lazy, picks his nose, talks to loud, smells bad, eats to much and drives way to fast!”.   Do you think you would hire me??

I know this sounds silly but that is mild compared to most of the political ads I have seen on the TV this election season.  Our country is in the midst of crisis right now.  We have over 15,000,000 people unemployed, people are homeless, families are broken, we have gang violence, many of our schools are failing and people are killing people over being cut off in traffic.  That is just the short list!  When I see those ads on the television it makes me sad because for all the slamming of each other I as a person still do not know what the person running for office really stands for, except his dislike of his fellow man.

We can not keep blaming what is going on in this country on any one person, these things have been going on for years and getting worse and worse as we go.   We need to stop playing the blame game stand up and take charge to do our part to try to fix things.  I know it sounds small to think one person can make a difference but think about it.  If just one stood up that’s more than we would have had had none stood up.

I know that it sounds like a hard thing to do, but I think just to start by taking baby steps towards loving one another again could help tremendously.  Why not as you are walking down the street today or standing in line to vote look others in the eye or talk to them and get to know them?  Do you know that maybe you will be the only person who spoke to them all day?  Instead of posting political junk on facebook and twitter, write a Bible verse or maybe an uplifting quote.   How about inviting others to church with us? If you think they won’t go invite them anyway, if they say no invite them again sometime.  It is not our job to decide if they will go to church or not, it’s our job to show and spread the love of Jesus.

We as people can not save our country only God can save our country, He is the one and only solution we have.  We have to start by spreading his love around.  We have to bring him back into our country, our schools and our workplaces.  Put those nativity scenes back out in front of the city courthouses.  Let our children pray at school.  God is THE solution and without Him we can never fix anything.

No matter what the outcome of this election today we must keep in mind who is really in charge and it is not us, the mayor, the governor, the senator or the president. The only person who is really in charge is God.  So before you go to the polls today pray that God can fix this nation of ours by changing the hearts of those who we chose to lead the country.  Pray that God will lead all of their decisions and that they will stand up for God first.  Pray that God will transform our communities and our lives, changing our hearts, bringing us all back together again as one Nation under God.  Trusting in God again just like was printed on our money many years ago and still is there today ‘In God we trust’.

 Romans 13:1  Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God.

John 13:34-35  “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.

Thank you for reading and God bless you.

Time With God

I have a routine, each and every morning I get up and go sit in my favorite chair where I can see the sun coming up.  During this time I meet with God.

For the past week my husband has been home from work.  I sure do enjoy his company but the problem is he is the earliest of early birds there is.

Somehow he always manages to get out of bed way before me.  I will get out of bed and he will already be out of bed right there in my favorite room of the house with his computer on doing what ever it is he does on that thing at the crack of dawn. The television will be blaring and he seems quite happy and content to stay right in that spot for several hours.

I have tried to get up earlier than him but he also has great ears and will never sleep late.   Today I got up before the sun came up and I snuck around being very quiet so as not to wake him so that I could have my visit with God before he got out of bed. It was just lovely outside so I had the outside door open.  Everything was perfect and new looking from the rain the night before and I could hear the birds singing.

I was sitting there in my favorite chair where I usually meet with God listening to the birds sing.  I was about 2 lines into my reading then I heard my husband’s feet hit the floor.  A few seconds later I saw him come walking into the room, go over to the door I had open and shut it.   He mumbled something about the humidity being 96 percent today as he proceeded to turn on the television.  So much for my quiet time with Jesus!

Don’t get me wrong when I tell you these things,  I love my husband dearly and I love seeing his smiling face in the morning but we each have our own way we start the day and I need my God time to start my day or I turn into the whining person who’s blog you are reading right now.   If I do not start my day off on the right foot I am hard to get along with and stay pretty cranky most of the day.

After a little small talk with my husband I got myself ready, told my husband good bye and headed for a shopping trip with a good friend of mine which it looked as if I was going to be late for.  I was rushing to get out on the road and just as I started to pull out of my subdivision a truck came down the road pulling right in front of me and he proceeded to drive about 30 miles per hour.  Not having my God time I am sure you can imagine how this added to my crankiness!

My next private place I have for time alone with God is usually the car.  I was not feeling very close to God today even in the car.  I tried singing along to the radio and wondering where was God today as I got more and more aggravated at my slow driving friend.

Finally! My slow driving friend pulled off on another street and I had the whole road to myself, I was free!  I hit the gas and turned up the radio.  It just so happened was playing a song that I do not really care for but the words hit me and I decided “gosh I need to sing along”.. so I started singing…

I will worship with all of my heart
I will praise You with all of my strength
I will seek You all of my days
And I will follow all of Your ways

I will give You all my worship
I will give You all of my praise
You alone I long to worship
You alone are worthy of my praise

I will bow down and hail You as King
I will serve You, give You everything
I will lift up my eyes to Your throne
I will trust You, I will trust You alone

I will worship, I will bow down
I will give You all my praise

The name of that song is – You’re Worthy Of My Praise,  by Big Daddy Weave and Barlow Girl

Just as the song ended I said out loud, “God where are you today?” Just as the words were out of my mouth a baby deer ran out in front of my car and just stopped in the middle of the road.  He just stood there calmly looking at me.  I had to slam on my brakes all the while he just stands there so pretty in the middle of the road oblivious to the fact he is within and inch of dying.  I barley managed to get the car stopped.  Once the car was stopped I noticed he was so beautiful.  I could see his big brown sweet kind eyes looking back at me.  Then slowly as if he had not a care and all the time in the world he scampered off into the woods, his beautiful little white spotted coat gleaming in the sunshine.

At that moment I realized THAT was God!  I had asked Him where he was and He had just shown me!  He had never left he had been there all morning long showing himself to me.  I just had been so angry and self absorbed that I could not see Him.  He had to stop me in my tracks by throwing something in my path, forcing me to stop.  He had shown me His beauty in that precious baby deer.

I found a place to pull off the road, and had my time with God then went on with my day.  It got much better after that 🙂

God never seems to stop amazing me at how he works. He is always faithful always true.  Though sometimes I am bull headed and blind thankfully He loves me anyway

Psalm 104:24 How many are your works, Lord! In wisdom you made them all;  the earth is full of your creatures.

Psalm 104:33-34 I will sing to the Lord all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live.  May my meditation be pleasing to him, as I rejoice in the Lord.

Thank you for Reading and God Bless you 🙂

Here is the video for the song I mentioned sorry about the advertisement I think you can skip it.